PaCeM

I don’t know where I’m going but I am very confident cause I can feel his presence.

This morning my mind was up and early but at the same time blank as a white sheet of paper. Ironically i thought that was a very good thing because it felt like an introduction to a new chapter. New Life. New Sight. New Beginning. So I went through series of meditations for about 30minutes to center my focus. Then a clear thought almost like a voice came to mind. It said something like this: Peace will only happen after the occurrence of transformation and/or rebirth. I thought to myself "Hmmmn that was different". It wasn't until a while after some deep digestions that i was able to tie both ends with something i was taught long ago at church which talked about what Jesus told the disciples after his resurrection on the third day: "I give you peace, my peace i leave to you"... in other words, it wasn't until after the occurrence of transformation from dyeing to resurrecting that he then granted us his peace (as well as the authority to keep and to make peace) before returning to the Man above.

I'm no prophet but i think i received a clear message this morning not just for me but also for the whole human race of this generation. Just looking at all the incidents that took place in my life and around the world within the past week or even past history; I feel that there have been some occurrence of transformations and/or rebirth before the turn of this new chapter. New Life. New Sight. New Beginning.

This to my understanding is the only way to arrive in that great level of peace today, tomorrow, to infinity.

"Pacem relinquo vobis pacem meam do vobis non quomodo mundus dat ego do vobis non turbetur cor vestrum neque formidet"

John14:27

--------- Pacem in this context is a latin word meaning: Peace ------

Our World

This weekend i stayed home and reflect on this past week. Here is what i've learned: 8 U.S. Air force troops killed in Afghanistan a couple days ago by a member of the Afghan security forces. In Syria soldiers were ordered by their government to shoot and kill unarmed civilians. Soldiers who refused to do so were shot at (executed). Over 250 dead bodies are found in the state of Alabama alone after killer tornadoes hit 6 southern states.

But on CNN "The most trusted news in the world" All i see is the updates and celebration of prince Williams wedding. This is what our world is turning into. I can only imagine what's next.

Despite my personal struggles, above all i once again thank God for granting me a lifestyle well beyond a vast majority of souls on earth and my thoughts and heart goes out to all the families suffering from this past week's tragedies.

FAY

~PHASE 1: REM SLEEP~

I’M CRYING EVRYONE’S TEARS

CAN YOU HEAR THE SOUND BEHIND THE WATERFALL OF SORROW

THE DEEP SOUNDS FROM THE BACKBONES OF MOTHER AFRICA

AS SHE CRIES BECAUSE SHE CLAIRVOYANTLY FELT THE DOWN FALLS OF TOMORROW

A RAPID SADNESS THAT SETS A GENERATION ON FREEZE LIKE ANTARTICA

COLDNESS BEYOND MEASURE.

SHE SAYS, “MY REPERTOIRE LOOKS EMPTY AND LEFTY

I WONDER WHO LEFT ME

I WONDER WHO WILL RAISE ME FROM THIS IS SO AWFUL”

CAN YOU HEAR THE SOUND BEHIND HER TEARS FILLED WITH SORROW?

HER TERRESTRIAL RICHES FOREVER BORROWED

SHE'S FORCED TO WORSHIP HER SO CALL GOVERNMENT AND PRESIDENT

WHILE THEY DRIVE MERCEDES BENZ, SHE STRIVE FOR DIVIDENDS

THOUGH STILL FAR FROM A NORMAL RESIDENT

HER LIFE IS UNDER TOTAL ANARCHY

STRUGGLES TO FEED HER CHILDREN,

SO THE HUNGRY ADOLESCENT JOIN THE ARMY

AND SADLY FAMILIARIZE THEMSELVES WITH M16’s AND SNIPER AMMOs

“I’M CRYING EVERONE’S TEARS” SO SHE SAYS AGAIN AND AGAIN AND AGAIN…

AND DEEPLY BREATHES IN PAIN

~PHASE 2: PRESENCE OF CONSCIOUS~

SUDDENLY I’M AWAKEN BY THIS SADNESS

THE ADRENALINE RUSHED THROUGH MY VEINS

SEEKING FOR A REACTION

RUTHLESS WORDS AND THOUGHTS RUNING THROUGH ME…

VIOLENCE!

REVANGENCE!

I’M FILLED WITH FURIOUS ANGER AGAINST THE UNSEEN

I’M READY FOR FATALITY

READY FOR WAR

READY TO GO AGAINST ALL SORTS OF BRUTALITY FORMED AGAINST FAY

“WAIT! WAIT! BREATHE…”

AS I WELCOME MORE OXYGEN INTO MY RESPIRATORY CHAMBERS,

“OK! OK! THINK FOR A MONENT”

THIS IS NOT LOGICAL

WHY THIS CALAMITY?

WHAT EVER HAPPEN TO THE PROMISED DESTINY?

FILLED WITH BLUE SKIES, TALL TREES, AND COOL BREEZES FROM THE TROPICALS

WE’RE ALL SUPPOSE TO PROSPER AS GOD’S CHILDREN DO

~PHASE 3: THE CONCLUSION~

TRAUMATIZATION HAS CAUSED A LACK OF FOCUS

WEAKENED MY SCHEMAS

LACK OF PREPARATION DEVELOPED CRITICAL PRESSURE

IT’S AMAZING HOW THE SUPERNATURAL PREPARES THE FUTURE

FOR SOME, THE OUTCOME IS AS PRECIOUS AS TREASURE

FOR OTHERS, LIFE’S A ROLLER COASTER…

NO CONSISTENCY

NO TENDENCY TO ONE DAY BE AWAKEN OUT OF COMPLACENT MENTALITY

“I’M CRYING EVERONE’S TEARS” SO SHE SAYS AGAIN AND AGAIN AND AGAIN…

AND DEEPLY BREATHES IN PAIN

THIS IS INSANE

---------------------This is a story about a women from my dream. hopeless and her life turned sour and dry with no where to escape. Regardless of how terrible this dream was i decided to name the women FAY, meaning Faith.------------------

Heb.11:1 Now faith is the substance of all things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen.

Tinie Tempah - Pass Out

The Feeling: 112240TSC707.35TPA622

The Feeling, direction, explanation, and contemplating the Ifs.

All in the opposite force of the earth’s rotation

Grounded as Gravitation.

~If I Can Explain The Way I Feel~

Stuck while searching for an even kill

Who’s to hear?

Who’s to fear?

None.

No one cares

No one shares

And all I see is Hurtful tears.

Though loneliness takes comfort, Deep inside I shout in great glory to the almighty;

For opportunity granted to live a lifestyle well above a vast majority of souls on earth.

Since unfinished business is not my forte,

I strive on that even kill

Hoping to put the finishing touch on this portray before sunset

Only until

Who’s to blame?

Self. Self.

May the strong survive

The weak Shaken

The virgin thrown in the snake pit or deep in the ocean honoring the kraken.

Only until

The more things change,

The more I stay the same

Seasons will come and go

But I will never change my flow

Rather be the shelf

Not the product in it

Real soldiers win it

Only until.

Never Still.

Rumble young man, Rumble…

Leave me my name

Because it is my name! Because I cannot have another in my life! Because I lie and sign myself to lies! Because I am not worth the dust on the feet of them that hang! How may I live without my name? I have given you my soul; leave me my name! ~ Arthur Miller

My Reflections...

I was Born with a spark. Then, my family fan the spark until it became a flame. My struggles fed the flame until it became a fire. Now, after a decade of enduring the pain and difficulties to reconcile my ideals with reality, im ready to turn the next chapter and feed this Fire until it becomes a Roaring Blaze. ~ Yannick

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She said: "Reflection is Protection"...
No dear, God is protection. Reflection is the advocate of our minds which function w/in wordly views; and seeks itself for either conformity on the views at stake or to construct barracades due to fears of the unknown. But God. God dear is the only connection to our heart and soul which provide an everlasting safety untouchable to the wordly, nor the ordinary, nor the incubi pressing to devour unity. I wish the best for you.